Havent blogged for awhile, been busy & been sick alot.
Wells i've been sick three times this whole summer, so this summer pretty much suckd for me.
but im getting all better now, &&& finally can strt chillin again. && thats why i havent been on myspace & on here alot. wells i been on myspace & twitter with my phone alot, since i was stuck in bedd.
wells what else has been goin on? wells babe has been back since tha 9th, && got to chill with himm alot, && went over to his house tha day i was super sickk, frick wrong decision to go there that day, cos i didnt knw i'd get more sick. but than i did. but im glad he took care of me & i slept over there that day so then he took care of me that whole day:) he made me soup, and brought be orange juice & he even fed me lol. cos i was super weak & i felt like fricken throwing up everytime i move and everytime i open my eyes i felt dizzzy. so he had to carry me and help me. lol
hmms, wells after that i stayed home alot to get better, and when i strted getting better i went to play bball with babe, then omg. haha i realized i wasnt at all better yet, omg i shot a couple baskets & after i felt so sick. i felt so dizzy & i felt like fainting, like i knw i wasnt dehydrated cos i was drinking water, i was just sickk. so damn, that wasnt funn at all. but after i stayed home alot again, then i got better, & went pearls cos i wanted to buy my jordans, but i ended up buying nikes airs instead cos was cheaper & cos i wanted to buy something else, haha. ill buy jordans next time i guess? maybe. lol if im still into it.
wells now, im getting better. like way way better. still sick, still feel ekkk. but waay better.
i went to get a physical on friday of last week, & tha doctor said im doing goood. i lost 28 pounds, so like blood pressure and all that all went down, so frikken happy. i still have a long way to go, cos i wanna loose like another 30 pounds haha! but yuh atleast im looosing, not gaining. & this past friday, i went to get shots. & then today went to get my blood drawn, OUCH! that fucken guy had to poke me 3 times cos he couldnt find my vain, shit. i was like so NOT relaxed. but anyways, after that we went home. thenn at around 11 we went pearls. then went back home & kuya jayr & brenda & ryan was there. brenda and kuya ryan was fishing, haha. so then we all fished but i got bored cos i wasnt catching nawthing, so i decided to go with my mom. we went dwntwn & thennn, costco. & get tha licssence plate for the car. dens went home, wen BBQ with tha cousins & fish some more. andd thenn went to pick up my dad, went home, chilled with tha cousins. && now im on this, fricken tryin to stay up. BEACH tomorrow with tha cousins, chris, brenda, ryan, eden,arnel, noel,cora, keyse, brendon, junyahh,jazzy,shyna. & idk whu else goin, but excited cos i miss da beach, havent been to tha beach since last month. & i never even swim that time. i hope ill swim this time. but idk cos i dont wanna get dark. AHAHA. okayy wells about to stop this before i start talking about other unnesscarsy things. okayy bye
Saturday
Thursday
Tuesday
2 DAYSZ LEFTT!
YESSSUHH! CANT WAIT TIL HE GETS BACK.
I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL HIM, THIS MONTH WAS THA LONGEST MONTH I'VE HAD
TO ACTUALLY GO THROUGH COS BEING WITHOUT HIM WUHS HARRD. I DONT KNW HOW I COULD DO IT BEFORE WHEN WE BROKE UP FOR ALIL OVER THAN A MONTH,
BHUT I GUESS THAT WAS WHEN I WAS IMMATURE & STUPID...NOW I KNW THAT
IM IN LOVE WITH CHRISTOPHER & I CAN GARENTEE YOU THAT ILL BE SPENDING THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HIM. HE'S THE ONE I WANT TO BE WITH FOREVER AND FOREVER AND FOREVER AND FOREVER & EVER! I DONT EVER WANNNNUH LOOSE HIM, && I SURE HOPE I WONT! BHUT THIS MONTH MADE ME REALIZE HOW IT WOULD BE LIKE AND FEEL LIKE IF HE LEFT ME, & I DONT LIKW IT ONE BIT! I DONT WANNA GO THROUGH THIS EVERR AGAIN! AFTER THIS EXPERIENCE I KNW THAT I'LL BE MUCH BETTER TO HIM & SPEND EACH DAY THAT WE HAVE TOGETHER COS' YOU NEVER KNW WUHHH WILL HAPPEN THA NEXT DAY. & GOD FORGIVE ME FOR SAYING THIS, BHUT YOU MAY BE ALIVE ONE DAY, BUT GOD MIGHT TAKE YOU THA NEXT. & THIS IS SOMETHING I DNT WANNNUH THINK ABOUT COS I DONT WANNNUH LOOSE CHRIS AT ALL. I WANNNUH SPEND THA REST OF MY DAYSZ WITH HIMM & ONLY HIM. && I PROMISED HIM THAT I'LL NEVER EVER HURT HIM AGAINNN & I WILL KEEP THAT PROMISE NOW, 1 YEAR FROM NOW, 10 YEARS FROM NOW, & WHENN WERE UP IN HEAVEN. ILL ALWAYS KEEEEP ALL MY PROMISES THAT I PROMISE YOUU & I WONT LET YOUU DOWNN BABE! I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHH!
I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL HIM, THIS MONTH WAS THA LONGEST MONTH I'VE HAD
TO ACTUALLY GO THROUGH COS BEING WITHOUT HIM WUHS HARRD. I DONT KNW HOW I COULD DO IT BEFORE WHEN WE BROKE UP FOR ALIL OVER THAN A MONTH,
BHUT I GUESS THAT WAS WHEN I WAS IMMATURE & STUPID...NOW I KNW THAT
IM IN LOVE WITH CHRISTOPHER & I CAN GARENTEE YOU THAT ILL BE SPENDING THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HIM. HE'S THE ONE I WANT TO BE WITH FOREVER AND FOREVER AND FOREVER AND FOREVER & EVER! I DONT EVER WANNNNUH LOOSE HIM, && I SURE HOPE I WONT! BHUT THIS MONTH MADE ME REALIZE HOW IT WOULD BE LIKE AND FEEL LIKE IF HE LEFT ME, & I DONT LIKW IT ONE BIT! I DONT WANNA GO THROUGH THIS EVERR AGAIN! AFTER THIS EXPERIENCE I KNW THAT I'LL BE MUCH BETTER TO HIM & SPEND EACH DAY THAT WE HAVE TOGETHER COS' YOU NEVER KNW WUHHH WILL HAPPEN THA NEXT DAY. & GOD FORGIVE ME FOR SAYING THIS, BHUT YOU MAY BE ALIVE ONE DAY, BUT GOD MIGHT TAKE YOU THA NEXT. & THIS IS SOMETHING I DNT WANNNUH THINK ABOUT COS I DONT WANNNUH LOOSE CHRIS AT ALL. I WANNNUH SPEND THA REST OF MY DAYSZ WITH HIMM & ONLY HIM. && I PROMISED HIM THAT I'LL NEVER EVER HURT HIM AGAINNN & I WILL KEEP THAT PROMISE NOW, 1 YEAR FROM NOW, 10 YEARS FROM NOW, & WHENN WERE UP IN HEAVEN. ILL ALWAYS KEEEEP ALL MY PROMISES THAT I PROMISE YOUU & I WONT LET YOUU DOWNN BABE! I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHH!
Monday
3 days left
theirs only 3 days more. finally! he called me yesterday afternoon, after a nap wells he actually woke me up but thats okayy. cos i was waiting for his call. but yeah i told him not to call already after this cos it charges my cell & my bill probably gonna be fucken high this comming bill & id probably get in trouble, & i hope i wont shiit. but yeahh i cant wait til he comes back home, i miss himm. he said he bought me something, but idk whuut. but i dont care wuhht it is, as long as its from himm. damn this month was really long! bhut im happy its finally comming to tha end!
wells thats all i have for nows,
i guess i would update lateeer
wells thats all i have for nows,
i guess i would update lateeer
10 DAYS LEFT!
ITS FINALLY 10 DAYS LEFT TIL BABE IS BACK HERE!
CANT FUCKENN WAIT! haha!
WELLS TODAY IS OUR 1 YEAR TEN MONTHS!
YEAHHH YUHH! CANT BELEAVE THAT WE MADE IT THIS FAR!
BUT I COULDNT TALK TO HIM TODAY, I GUESS HE COULDNT TALK.
BUT ANYWAYS, I DO MISS HIM & I LOVE HIM ALOT!
WELLS, IDK WUHH ELSE TO SAY, & IM WATCHING THA REAL WORLD.
SO BYEE!
CANT FUCKENN WAIT! haha!
WELLS TODAY IS OUR 1 YEAR TEN MONTHS!
YEAHHH YUHH! CANT BELEAVE THAT WE MADE IT THIS FAR!
BUT I COULDNT TALK TO HIM TODAY, I GUESS HE COULDNT TALK.
BUT ANYWAYS, I DO MISS HIM & I LOVE HIM ALOT!
WELLS, IDK WUHH ELSE TO SAY, & IM WATCHING THA REAL WORLD.
SO BYEE!
Saturday
a little something for you babe, HAPPY 22MONTHS<3
I can't believe its only 12 more days til you come back home:) yay! hehe. I miss you so muchh! & in 2 days, its ganna be our 22 months:) i cant believe that we made it this far. after all the fights, jealousy, cheating, & lies. we are still here & holding on. I just wanted to let you knw again, that I REGRET cheating on you & lieing to you all those times. I was stupid back then, now i realize that i love you. From being with you, I've realized that were a perfect fit & that i matured more since 2 years ago. being with you made me realize that i can be a better person & that i dont have to act different to make you happy. I wasnt so religous back then, but now cos' of you i pray everynight. I pray because i love how i turned out, becos of you.I pray because i dont want to loose you, & i pray becos' i realized that life is very important & also my family & friends. you made me realize alot of things that i didnt care about 2 years ago. I was seriously goin the wrong path, & you knw everything that i've done before, & now i've sacrificed the old me, into this new person that you made me become. Thiers still some stuff that will always be me, & cant change like my personality & my attitude but you knw that wont ever change. you made me become a better person, a better girlfriend, & now look at me. If you looked at how i was before, doin drugs, smoking, drinkin nonstop, & other really bad things i've done...look at me now, I STOPPED ALL OF THOSE THINGS, becos of you. & i thankyou for that. I'm glad that you helped me out throughout these 2 years that we'
ve been together. I've knwn you for a really
really long time, probably like 6 years or more cos' i knew you from jason them, but we never used to talk. & i never imagined being with you nor even talking to you. for some reason 2 years ago, a click between us happened & i guess this was a sign from GOD. I thank god every day for giving me a special gift, which is to be able to love someone more than i love myself, he gave me the gift of finding your ONE TRUE LOVE. i believe that you are my one true love. it took four years for us to realize that we belong together but now that we're old enough, im finally living my dream that i've always asked for as a child. I remember asking for my one true love when i was a little girl, like 7 years old when i used to watch those movies & i just wanted to have someone like that. Not everyone finds their one true love, maybe just a spouse that you do love, but its not their true love. I knw that your my true love. Im glad that it was you, becos' theirs so many things that I can say to you, & after these 2 years i can finally say that i proved all my friends wrong. We used to fight every day, & arguee everywhere. That last fight we had, was really an eye poppper. it made me realize so much things. now, we havent fought at all. We both changed in this relationship, you used to be so bad to me, treated me wrong all the time & i used to the the jealous one & tha lier. Now, look. we aint any of those. you treat me soooo goood now! even though the begginging of our relationship was rocky, like all those fairytales, your in love at first, then you hate that person, then you two fall in love & that spark just hits. thats how i see our relationship, its just this is real and not a fairytale. I promise you my heart&mylove ALWAYS & FOREVER;)
ve been together. I've knwn you for a really really long time, probably like 6 years or more cos' i knew you from jason them, but we never used to talk. & i never imagined being with you nor even talking to you. for some reason 2 years ago, a click between us happened & i guess this was a sign from GOD. I thank god every day for giving me a special gift, which is to be able to love someone more than i love myself, he gave me the gift of finding your ONE TRUE LOVE. i believe that you are my one true love. it took four years for us to realize that we belong together but now that we're old enough, im finally living my dream that i've always asked for as a child. I remember asking for my one true love when i was a little girl, like 7 years old when i used to watch those movies & i just wanted to have someone like that. Not everyone finds their one true love, maybe just a spouse that you do love, but its not their true love. I knw that your my true love. Im glad that it was you, becos' theirs so many things that I can say to you, & after these 2 years i can finally say that i proved all my friends wrong. We used to fight every day, & arguee everywhere. That last fight we had, was really an eye poppper. it made me realize so much things. now, we havent fought at all. We both changed in this relationship, you used to be so bad to me, treated me wrong all the time & i used to the the jealous one & tha lier. Now, look. we aint any of those. you treat me soooo goood now! even though the begginging of our relationship was rocky, like all those fairytales, your in love at first, then you hate that person, then you two fall in love & that spark just hits. thats how i see our relationship, its just this is real and not a fairytale. I promise you my heart&mylove ALWAYS & FOREVER;)
Wednesday
Day 16:
sorry i havent been blogging, ive been very busy. but anyways,
babe called me on monday night @ around 11. we talked for about 10 mins,
& then the call ended. i guess he didnt have anymore load. && ohh yeah he also called me like saturday and sunday & we talked for about 5 mins. thas about it. 16 more days til
he comes back home. CANT WAIT! i dnt knw when he will call again,
maybe today, maybe tomorrow, maybe 3 days from now. IDK. wells
i've been starting to think alot about hiimmm again, urghs. a month is just so damn long.
i just miss talking to himm & getting to see himm. when he gets backk, imma go out with him
every time i get tha chance too. probably almost everyday HAHA. but yeahhh
my niece & nephew is also comming from oregan & so ill probably have to cruise with
themm too. mall, shoppping, beach or wuuh nott. but yeahh chris can tagg along.
maynn i miss him sooo friggen muchh.
i wishh he was back already. URGHS!
wells; thas about it. so ill UPDATEEE SOON.
ADIOS.
babe called me on monday night @ around 11. we talked for about 10 mins,
& then the call ended. i guess he didnt have anymore load. && ohh yeah he also called me like saturday and sunday & we talked for about 5 mins. thas about it. 16 more days til
he comes back home. CANT WAIT! i dnt knw when he will call again,
maybe today, maybe tomorrow, maybe 3 days from now. IDK. wells
i've been starting to think alot about hiimmm again, urghs. a month is just so damn long.
i just miss talking to himm & getting to see himm. when he gets backk, imma go out with him
every time i get tha chance too. probably almost everyday HAHA. but yeahhh
my niece & nephew is also comming from oregan & so ill probably have to cruise with
themm too. mall, shoppping, beach or wuuh nott. but yeahh chris can tagg along.
maynn i miss him sooo friggen muchh.
i wishh he was back already. URGHS!
wells; thas about it. so ill UPDATEEE SOON.
ADIOS.
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