DAY 1: babes @ philippines.

Babe has officially landed at philippines by now. He left this morning @ 945. so an 11 hour flight to philippines so he landed not too long ago. he's probably still at the airport & getting the luggage and stuff. today was a long day, the last time i talked to him was when he got onto the plane, which was 930am. I decided to go pool with braddah to take my mind off things, but that didnt work much. haaa' i miss him so much already. day 1 of 30 days; it has been a long day. i couldnt stop thinking about him, he was all that i could think about. i cant even talk to him nor see him for a daymn month. i dont know how couples that have long distance relationships handle this, i cant handle having a long distance relationship. this is so hard not to see him. i wish i could atleast talk to him for alil while, but reality kicks in & i cant. SUCKZS! He told me whenever i missed him & couldnt handle it anymore. that i can call his phone & leave vm. yeah i sent like 5 already. i dont wanna send choke cause by the time i reallly miss him & i wanna leave him a vm, then i cant. cause his inbox will be full. Its was so hard to say bye today. it was sooo daymn hard, & i cried. I didnt want him to leave.

now i know that im truly in love with himmm. i never felt this way before. & every daymn thing reminds me of himmm. my whole room, the mall, pictures, myspace, ewa, everydaymn thing and everydaymn where. I have so many things in my room that shouts out BABBBEE! like all this drawings that he made for me. all the valentines cards he made me. every stuffed animal in my room was from himm. all my stuffed dogs and bears was all from himm. I recently got a another dog stuffed animal from babe. and i added glasses on tha dog andd babes hat that he gave me, & that just shouts out BABBBBY! ahhhh, its so hardd. plus i have his pillow here at my house, cause i told him i wanted to take home his pillow so that when your gone, ill have something to hold when im crying & thats what i actually been doing! the pillow smells just like himm, urghh. i cant stop thinking about himmm.

*TEARS! ;byee. immma go now. immma update everydayy until the day he comes backk.